Creativity & Music

Happy Solstice

Today is the morning of the shortest day of the year.  A time when I usually clean up, simplify, tidy, pray. I’m grateful for my blessings this year: learning to persevere, my friends. I’m also grateful for something that happened recently. In the place cleared by recognizing that I’d already lost my older brother, I …

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I love this

It gives me a visual representation of how I’m doing, via what I write in my blog over the last few weeks. Fabulous.

Doing better

This morning I woke up with some great ideas for the novel I’m writing for National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo to us novelists). I’m about a third of the way through my novel, which is pretty exciting, and I have figured out how it’s going to turn out. Novel writing is a bit like sculpting …

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I’m writing a novel for National Novel Writing Month. I’ve decided to do it here, and will be adding to this post throughout the month. The task is to write 50,000 words between November 1-30th. We’re not supposed to edit or review so this is the first draft, but I thought it might be interesting …

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Perseverence continued

Skipped 2 days, did my singing practice today. Today I did it with my wife home, standing facing the door, and found it a lot easier to concentrate without getting flashbacky. (what is this about? click here to see the rest of this story. )

unfinished business

(Trigger warning to my ritual abuse survivor allies – the following has description of positive pagan ceremony. ) Last night I got together with a friend of mine who shares my religious beliefs. We got to talking about how neither of us are completing our creative projects to our satisfaction. As we talked, we both …

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Why is it I can get so much done at work on a computer and the rest of my time I don’t live my life as exuberantly and richly as  I want to?   It is almost a year since I found out my dad had been in the hospital with a cancer recurrence for …

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Not around much

Hi there, I haven’t been posting much because I’ve got marital stuff going on that doesn’t have much to do with the theme of this blog. I’ve also been away from my computer a lot. It’s all fine, I’m sorting it out, but that’s why I haven’t posted. I’ll post something more interesting when I’ve …

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New song

Here’s a song I just wrote: “Scars to Prove It” Have you ever wondered how a child survives a horror? Do you think children are resilient or children they forget? Hiding from yourself, is necessary for survival Nice girls don’t make a fuss Nice girls they pretend they’re safe and loved 30 years or more …

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Hi there, I’m going on vacation for a week, to a women’s Pagan retreat. Apparently there will be lots of singing, dancing, art and skinny dipping  in the lake. I’m looking forward to it. SDW

Filling a space

Last night I was reading in bed waiting for my wife to (finally) stop messing around on the computer and come to bed.  The book I was reading was on psychic self defence, not a topic I particularly needed, but it was the only book in the bookstore by an author I like.  Anyhow, he was …

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Magic and Meditation

I attended my friend’s celebration of life this week. It seems she was a remarkable woman. I also found out at this ceremony that she was probably a survivor as well. There were about a hundred people at the ceremony, all of whom had been profoundly affected by her support and positive encouragement.  The attendees …

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The Man Who Planted Trees

This video/story has nothing to do with being a survivor, really, but much to do with hope and making a difference. It’s an allegorical tale of a man who spends his life planting trees. This is the type of movie I’d like to see more of instead of reality tv, never resolving dramas and sensationalized …

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My Older Brother

A few weeks back I called my older brother, and left a phone message. I want to talk to him about some stuff to do with my father dying and also to ask him for information about the first house we lived in. However, we’re somewhat estranged, which started happening around the time I started …

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