Excerpted from: Wikipedia Highland Dancing Description HIGHLAND FLING As was traditional of the old kings of Scotland, Highland dancing was used to choose the best men for their men at arms. These dances tested the culminate of warrior skills including accuracy, agility and stamina. Prospects danced upon a small round shield (called a Targe) and […]
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I’m planning to rent a bus to drive up to my father’s grave with all the survivor friends I can muster. So far I have about six, including my Aunt. (He’s not dead yet, but a girl can hope.) I’m thinking of having a road trip CD. When we got married, I spent months crafting
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One of the things I believe as part of my religion is that communication with the Gods is not just a one way flow. Events that feel significant in one way or another, probably are. Many people believe that their Gods answer their prayers for help or guidance in this way. I went downtown on
“What are the words you do not yet have? What do you need to say? What are the tyrannies you swallow day by day and attempt to make your own, until you will sicken and die of them, still in silence? Perhaps for some of you here today, I am the face of one of
I just reread my last two posts (and found and fixed some typos). Getting to certainty is important. When I read Tarot, I get myself calm and centred, and then reach down to my roots and dwell there. This helps me be grounded in my intuition and my connection to the Goddess. If I don’t
So I did end up talking to a lawyer about my father and the scar tissue last night, but not in the way I expected. I asked a friend of mine, who is a lawyer about how I might go about finding a suitable lawyer. She asked what about and we got into it. She
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Last night I watched a show called ‘the listener’ where the hero is this paramedic with the ability to listen to people’s thoughts. Often this leads to him helping people. The episode I watched, he hears/sees in the brain of a street kid about a young girl being held captive in a steel box and
This doctor is looking for a way to help sexual abuse survivors who don’t want a pap test to do their own tests. http://www.cmaj.ca/cgi/reprint/162/5/666.pdf
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I haven’t seen my therapist in about a month and will be seeing her this afternoon. I’ve been seeing her for about a year, first weekly then biweekly, since soon after I found out about my dad/abuser’s cancer recurrence and had a strong emotional reaction. She’s pretty good and I like her and I fairly
A friend of mine sent me this video link and I loved it. Music with a hopeful topic, presented in a playful way. A pick me up. Made me cry a little, but just because sometimes beauty overwhelms me. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UJKythlXAIY Okay it says let it go this too shall pass, but I interpret that in
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Here is a sports medicine journal article which is the only one I found about survivors and issues with exercise. There was another one that said that about half of the survivors surveyed had found physical exercise to be a helpful healing strategy. I’d have to say that it fits for me. I feel like
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I just did a rather mild exercise session to an online video: http://www.doctoroz.com/videos/you-diet-beginners-workout I didn’t make it through without crying. I think I stopped half way, doing the floor exercises. It seemed to be the ‘holding on’ part of the exercise that got me. The part where you’re in mild discomfort from laying down and
I’m thinking about scaling back my therapy schedule from once every two weeks to once a month. It’s been over a year now since I found out my father/abuser had a severe cancer recurrence, and apparently he’s once again dodging the bullet. Apparently even the afterlife doesn’t want anything to do with him. Why prepare
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Today is the morning of the shortest day of the year. A time when I usually clean up, simplify, tidy, pray. I’m grateful for my blessings this year: learning to persevere, my friends. I’m also grateful for something that happened recently. In the place cleared by recognizing that I’d already lost my older brother, I
I’m having a rough time. Losing my older brother has really sent me into grief. First my mother hasn’t responded to my letter in over a year, and now my brother seems to have written me off. My wife and I sent off our ‘solstice letter’ to a bunch of people with Christmas cards, mostly
I haven’t been on this blog much lately because I was writing my novel. I did it! I finished 50,000 words in one month. Yay for me. I took a break from the singing practice during novel writing month and hope to come back. [Abuse triggers] Lately the big issue for me is strangulation. I’ve
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It gives me a visual representation of how I’m doing, via what I write in my blog over the last few weeks. Fabulous.
[possible triggers, ongoing domestic violence – not toward or from me] A good friend of mine’s husband threatened to kill her a couple of weeks ago. She called the cops who hauled him off in handcuffs. They put a two month no contact order on him, which unfortunately expired yesterday, when she refused to give